Wednesday, March 30, 2005
im so down
i feel as tho im on the edge of fallin
into a pit SO deep
where i cud bury maself in ma sorrows.
disappointment n frustration has set in
followed by fear n confusion
to brood, i do not want
but no sense of comfort cn seem to eva help me.
tears of defeat i try to not release
a strong front i try to put up.
wif paintbrushes in hand i paint maself a facade
wif da hope dey r colourful enuf to distract ppl frm da real me.
bt i tink wt's reali botherin me inside
is the anticipation of the disappointment in ma parents' eyes
upon meetin ma dreadful new found "fren",
'tho she aint someone im proud of.
i know she's gona shadow me til she finds a new haunt.
'til den i juz hafta work hard to fend her off.
its gona be tough and draining, i fear it'd wear me off..
but im sure wif peseverence and belief, dis wil b a task im capable of.
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5:11 AM
Sunday, March 27, 2005
went to sentosa yest..wif eme..haven gone to da beach for awhile ored..so twas nice..bt i din reali get dt much of a tan tho..coz of the weather..twas basically crazy..drizzled a bit..den it gt cloudy..n it shined again..n den rained...haha.
basically went to accompany eme..as twas the ITE rugby guys' celebration picnic..well, aidil invited her..so yar..twas awkward initially..but it turned out ok in the end..did nth much reali 'cept did a 'liol tannin, went for a swim in the sea..den we played touch..dt ws nice tho..n i juz realised hw ma fitness nw sucks..afta juz nt trainin for 2-3 wks i tink..hmm..gt loads to do now to regain ma 'ole fitness level..
n oh, dere wasnt much cuties to oogle over..'cept for "ma" lifeguard n dis REALI cute pan-asian guy, who turned out to be a professional soccer player frm albirex!!! really cute n hot!! n plus, he has japanese blood too! hahaha. i noe...i noe...bet u guys wud b goin, "ok...dts enuf di..." hahaha.
hmm...sch resumes tmr..n im SO dreadin it...! sigh. nt oni is dere gona be lessons..bt we'd hafta face the torture of anticipatin our common test results...! ARGH!!!! wonder hw i did...
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4:15 AM
WORDS WOMEN USE:-
"Fine!"
This is the word women use to end an argument when they are right and you need to shut up. Five Minutes If she is getting dressed, this is half an hour. "Five minutes..." is only five minutes if you have just been given 5 more minutes to watch the game before helping around the house. "Nothing..." This is the calm before the storm. This means "something" and you should be on your toes. Arguments that begin with "nothing" usually end in "fine". "Go Ahead..." This is a dare, not permission, DON'T DO IT! Loud Sigh Although not actually a word, the loud sigh is often misunderstood by men. A "Loud Sigh" means she thinks you are an idiot and wonders why she is wasting her time standing here and arguing with you over "Nothing". "That's Okay..." This is one of the most dangerous statements that woman can make to a man. "That's Okay" means that she wants to think long and hard before deciding how and when you will pay for your mistake. "Thanks." This is the least used of all words in the female vocabulary. If a woman is thanking you. Do not question it, just say you're welcome and back out of the room slowly. |
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4:07 AM
Wednesday, March 23, 2005
FINALLY!!! its over!!! sigh. what a relief..but it wasnt an easy end to the exams tho..physics ws tough..math ws tricky..n i tink i stressed maself up TOO much till i cudnt reali tink properly..both venues were FREAKIN cold til ma lips were chapped..conditions were uncomfortable..especially for math paper til ma neck hurt..n i CANT believe da mistake i did durin ma math paper!!! ARGH!!! bummer...sigh. guess i'd juz hafta pray for da best..PLEASE GOD!!! lemme pass EVERYTHING!!!
hmm...i hope we t stil goin out tmr..nt sure if its stil gona be on nw dt we didn't reali get to discuss abt it juz nw in sch..n dt nw julaiha's sick..gosh! its da DAMN whether..coz i stil hve ma flu frm LAST FRI!! it's crazy ryt?? hmm..n oh..aisha's SO gona be missed..NOT!! aha...she'd be headin to KL for a holidae wif her family tomorrow..lucky her! hmm..imagine all da SHOPPIN she'd b able to do...! nvm..we shall do sum of our own tmr..WITHOUT aisha!! hahaha. ;p
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4:22 AM
Monday, March 21, 2005
1st dae of the ever-dreadin common tests..1 down and 2 more to go..! and they juz HAD to put dose last 2 papers together on wed...but i guess, at least i'd have the thursday and friday off..havin 4 WHOLE daes to enjoy before the monotonous lessons begin to fill themselves up in ma oh-so borin life again..aha!
hmm..i guess i hafta give an account of ma dae and the "highlight" of it : da CHEM common test! oooh...."WOW!" hahaha. paper 1 ws ok..paper 2 ws mo tough..well, i usually dun tink much about the paper once it's done..duno y..juz dun lyk to do so..lyk dey sae..shing ga them ga them..wts done is done..i REALLY duno how ppl cn rememba da qns, especially together with their qn numbers! and their answers SPECIFICALLY! step by step sumtyms..i mean lyk WHOA! its nt lyk i cant..i CAN rememba da qns vaguely..bt NOT da qn numbers! just a habit dt ive embraced so as to not stress maself up too much ova it..
went to eat with aisha, ju n za at LJ causewae pt..our dear deb went hme as she ws too tired..she slept at 4am, for goodness sake..! so i undastan..haha. chilled dere for sum tym, went to exchange za's bro's bdae present for a bigger size..FINALLY got ma nail polish..haha. sorry guys for takin such a long tym decidin which nail polish colour to buy..u noe me...hehe. ;p
haven started any revision for math n physics..m OFFICIALLY a dead meat! so i guess i beta mke FULL use of da tym ive left..36 mo hours till DOOMS-DAY if i dun start muggin soon..! cmon di!! u cn do it!! tink of all da shoppin u cn do afta dt!! 60 mo hours till its tym for a shoppin spree!!!! hahaha.
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2:44 AM
Wednesday, March 16, 2005
hmm...gt DAMN sick yest..! SUPER sick til i ws walkin ard unda da HOT scorchin sun in ma thick ROXY sweater..! n yet, i ws still feelin cold..! hahaha. went for da math tez despite ma temperature..went to ma granma's to rest afta which i felt SO much beta..went hme to rest sumo afta dt..wt an INTERSTIN dae aint it?? haha.
went to watch ma ROGUES play at yio chu kang stadium in da mornin..wif ma sis..haha. coz she ws supposed to follow me go study wif ma frens at da library..decided to ask her along as i knew she'd b bored at hme..so yar..n oh, thank god da sis ws patient n nice todae..didn't utter a single complaint as she juz sat dere watchin otha teams ply at her own will..while i watch da gals..twas FREAKIN hot again today..but i ws back to ma normal self..perspirin 'stead of shiverin..hahaha. went for lunch wif dem afta dt at causeway point wif mr lee, who ws lookin all cool n stylish 2dae..aha. met up wif julaiha n aisha afta dt at wdlands library for some studyin..stayed dere til abt 6 plus before we left for al-ameen's, where i'd ma egg n plain prata wif lychee drink..twas SO fillin..SURPRISINGLY! aha..well, dt ws basically ma dinner..haven eaten ever since..duno wt im gona do tmr..c hw..n hey! im nt sleepy..crazy aint it? especially when all ma frens who were online wif me juz nw are all ored sound aslp..aha. well guess i beta go nw den..til den..CIAO!!~
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8:27 AM
Friday, March 04, 2005
its da release of da Alevel results 2dae..ws SO scared and nervous for ma frens...well, dis is all i cn sae...2 dose who gt wt dey wan, i wish u guys "CONFRATULATIONS!! WELL DONE!!"..n 2 dose who didn't, it's ok..thing's happen for a reason..perhaps God has planned sumthing beta ahead of u..n it has REALLY motivated and persevered me to work harder for ma As..and ma common tests dats comin up..thanx for da advice u guys gave me..dun wori..i'd tke dem in ma stride n nt ignore dem..
M1 touch com comin up in 2 weeks' tym..sigh. nt again..lyk last yr..y do dey hafta always mke it near da common test?? Da team’s nw ponderin ova whether to tke part in it onot..bt if dey dun, dey won’t b able to tke part in da following 2 touch competitions..sigh. well, had a team talk 2dae..bt I’d to rush off..wonder wt ws the consensus dey agreed upon..
Oh..went to watch “Hitch” last wed at prince..really nice!! GREAT movie!!! A MUST-WATCH!! It’s a chick-guy flick..so everyone SHOULD watch it..! ‘nuff said..or I’d juz go rattling on abt da movie n in da end, tell on u guys wt da story line is..hehe.
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